Curvy, I want but fat not..

I have let my self go somehow..
I have been ill whole winter and have not written anything sensible her nor anywhere else.. Just plane lazy girl.

Well I am going to loose weight.. I am. I promise.
I have ordered diet meal plan for my self, and let´s see where I go with it.
I still want to be curvy but, I just want to be healthier size and when someone offers me seat in tube and I realize they might think I am pregnant.. there came my limit. Off you go for diet and stay as long as I feel good about my size and my self.
I would love to loose 25kg which is quite a lot, but.. I would love to be SMALLER.
Lucky me I have quite small frame for my height and when I loose fat, I actually get quite small.. but stay curvy. I don´t have big bottom or wide shoulders I am simply.. fat all over.
In a way it is bad as I can never hide my fat anywhere.. as it is everywhere.. but then again.. it nevers sits just on my tummy or my tights or my bum.. it is harder job to loose it if you just  have everything in one place.. but never mind.. What ever place fat is.. it is now bothering me and I want to get rid of it, and be desirable Beach beauty next summer.. it is March and I counted that if I loose 2kg per week (some times it can go faster and then.. in the end it will be difficult and slower) I can be 20kg lighter in the end of the may!!! It would make me feel so much better about my self that I just HAVE TO DO IT!

I will post you before pictures then when I have some results and I feel good to show some after pictures as well.

This is my target:

Chrystal Renn before she became skinny